Fourteenth/Fifteenth Scribe: Push On

(Written in February)

I’m out of school and its closing towards the end of the holidays. School for others has already commenced and it’s starting to feel weird. I feel like I should be going to school.. like I belong there.. but I suppose there comes a point in one’s life where one must move on, and so I have. I’ve moved on into the big world and with university commencing soon I prepare to face the challenges that await me. My values are strong.. I am strong, ready and committed to influence others and lead them. Those who hit me hard with hate and arrogance will falter and fall under the light that emanates from my soul. The experiences... and the gift that I have must now be equipped and used for the betterment of the world. While I continue to grow in this new light no one will stop me no matter how close, far or dedicated they are... they will not obstruct me. For I travel hard and strong.. with compassion and commitment to fulfil my purpose. Endurance will take me far... and it will be far enough....

- Those who seek to bring chaos to the world will be broken

Fifthteenth Scribe: What Do You See In The Open Sky ?

Don't you just hate it when you strive so hard.. you spill your heart and soul out to achieve something and yet the goal is no where in sight ? You pour every single part of yourself in to doing the best that you can and yet...someone else just easily takes it away from you as if you were standing stagnant. That someone else is filled with hate he breeds anger in to the world and torments others while mocking those who are less fortunate.. It is as if the wicked are blessed but not the good... it is as if everything you know has reversed and the universe is caught in an eternal spin of doom. Why ? Why does nothing ever go the way of the contented but instead take the worse possible route during the worse possible time ?

It is my first year of university. Ppl seem so distant now, and the bondages that glued friendships toghether during highschool is non-existant. The atmosphere feels like its ever man for himself.. but no.. I will not accept this... I do not want to accept the corrupted nature of world at its face value... I believe there is something signifcantly deeper. Deeper than the arrogance that lies on the surface, deeper than the closed mind that rejects others. Everyone has a heart that is tucked away or pushed aside somewhere in a dusty coner.. (to protect it ?) What a chaotic realm in which we live... defence mechanisms that have gone wrong. It is when these mechanisms stop protecting but instead collide with its equivalent in its surroundings that it evolves, not just to defend but to attack.

The Voice... such a powerful weapon ... such deadly weapon... such a destructive weapon... while its use is inevitable everyday

- Nice people will never finish last

Fourteenth Scribe: Into the world I go

Is it time?

Is it time to change? Is it time to reveal my soul, from obscurity, from hiding? Is it time to release myself into world? Society says yes, but my heart remains uncertain...scared? Yesterday was my valedictory dinner. It marked the dismissal of us boys from school and our release into the open world as we spread our knowledge and values through our relation with others. A great leader once said "don't be afraid of change...don't be too comfortable" as a testament to his will to stretch his boundaries. I believe this is exactly what I need to achieve. To stretch my boundaries and not be afraid of mistakes. To stand for my values and what I believe in even if it meant standing alone attracting the torment of others.

I am ready to explore the world...

I am ready to learn and respect the values of others...

I am ready to build relations...

I am ready to treasure those that are close and far...

I am ready to be proud of who I have become...

I am ready to influence the world...

I am ready to be happy....

- "Find humour in everything you do, in others and yourself " (Ryan Foster)