The big mistake, the one significant thing that I would do anything to change. It started with the transition, from Junior to Senior yr. I was only 13 at the time. I had a few friends, they were close ones too. We had the best times together, doing the craziest things together..but this was about to change. Previously, about 2 years back into Juniors school..both of my best friends left my school..to live elsewhere, one to eastern states of Australia and the other somewhere around Asia. On the first day of senior school my best friend, a half asian/australian boy who was born in Norway waited for me. He sat patiently on a low brick wall surrounding a small garden excited..I knew he had a lot to say to me. I walked towards him expressionless and I knew he was looking. As I got towards him I turned, ignored him and kept walking. I didn't know what I was doing, it was as if I was suddenly possessed for a brief moment. I said I was better than him, and that senior school was a fresh start. My memory is vague for the following events, but I remember his face, it went dull..bloodless...I could see the sorrow in his face, but I knew..I knew I was wrong. I was the one holding him back. I felt an atmosphere of guilt, but didn't care...at the time.
The boy, his names Nick. Now, he is the example of a role model, a person that I would strive just to stand next to..or even talk to. He has everything, everything that I wished...I had....
I think, from time to time wondering what I would be like today..if I didn't make that mistake....
-history repeats itself many times in my life...only HE knows when I'll move on....
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